Get Caught! (AGAIN?)

it was a totally depressing day for me!
Lots of assignment, none of them has been done, and an so unimportant exam awaiting tomorrow.
The worst is, I get caught! Again!

So, wondering get caught what?
Yes!
Get caught that I went out for a date with my boyfriend last Saturday.
Geez!

Actually, I've promised my dad that I would break up with him about last two months as long as my dad won't go find him and mess everything up. He gave me 1 month to forget him (o, please~ that's the dumbest thing you would had ever done, dad. it won't work at all!).
My dad agreed, and promised. Me, of course, just in order to keep my boyfriend "safe", all of my promises were just words! (sorry for that, dad, but I had to do this.)
So, backstreet for almost two months without my parents noticing. I thought it would be much easier after I have get caught (for the 1st time) and just kept doing the things normally. Sneak out, late calls, everything we usually do.

BUT!
Today, I am a totally dummie!
I was helping my friend, Jeanny, scanning for the files needed for the exam tomorrow, using my lil bro's laptop, because mine hasn't been installed the printer program (geez!). And I also e-mailed it immediately (still using lil bro's laptop) . The most foolish, I forgot to sign out and just closed the browser Mozilla Firefox that will automatically shows up the earlier pages you visited everytime you start it. Then Shut Down the laptop.
In the evening, after I finished my private lesson, when I arrived home I saw my room's light was turned on.
I got a very bad feeling that my dad was using my lil bro's laptop for internet (he usually uses my lil bro's) and I just remembered that I hadn't sign out from my Yahoo! Mail !!!
I got into my room immediately and saw my dad sitting there, with that gloomy look in his face, staring at the laptop, where my photo with my boyfriend was! O damn!
So, there began the "judgement" with my parents for the whole evening.
The point was, they were so disappointed that I lied to them once more time. My dad was so furious and he even called the place where my boyfriend works.
Finally, after some agreements (which of course not fit with my heart), I gave him his number, and my dad called him, cleared everything.
And I told him that I have decided to break up with him (another lie again).
What could I say?
My dad gave me two choices : choose your parents and break up with him or choose him and "break up" with your parents!
Darn!
Of course the 1st choice! I haven't lost my mind yet.
Well, the heartbreaking part wasn't the moment I made the choice (hey, it was all DRAMA!). It was the time when my dad kept on saying the bad things about him, what are the goods from him, what he could do, blah...blah...blah... Saying like there were nothing good from him.
Geez, dad, I AM the one who know him far more better than you! You know NOTHING about him! :(

Things will get harder for both of us, but I always believe it won't last forever. Just need to wait for about 2 years, after I've graduated, after I've been in college. Coz my parents said that I'm allowed to have a boyfriend at that time (geez, I hope it will also due for this situation).
No matter what, I won't give up till my last blood. I DO really MEAN it.
All the things that I could do now is only praying to God for the best for both of us.
God, please help us :(

It was a really tough day for me.
*sigh

love,
liljade :)